Beloved One

John writes he's the disciple Jesus loved,
referring to himself without a name,
as if, unlike the rest, St. John had shoved
himself into first place, his claim to fame.
How strange, I think, why does he write this way,
since Jesus loved the others too we know?
So what exactly does he mean to say,
unequal love that Jesus meant to show?
Perhaps it was how Jesus made him feel,
that Christ his hero held him in such thrall
he felt loved in a human way so real,
so was the one who loved Christ most of all.
O Christ, let me love You so all might see
that You're the One beloved most by me.

                              -- by Pete Voelz       2/07